My Future {the day I let my heart rule my head}

I think. A lot. About everything. All the time. And I worry. It’s very much a part of who I am.

I have had a habit of doing what I think is right by other people before I do what is right for myself. It’s somehow easier to overrule your own heart than what your head perceives others to be thinking. It’s easier to do, but not an easy way to live.

I have made choices many times in the past, and recurrently they have been the ‘right’ choice, according to some preset ideas of what I think I am meant to be doing in others eyes. I always let my head over rule my heart.

I often fight to suppress the dreamer and the idealist in me. But what if I embraced all the strengths (what they do well whether desirable or not) of both my heart (the dreaming, emotional, idealist) and my head (the over thinker)?

What if I let my heart rule my head?

Yesterday I acted upon a growing resolve in my heart. My head had panicked for months about this decision, but when it came down to it, on this occasion, my unwavering heart won through.

Yesterday I resigned.

To mark this change in the story of my life, I have carved out a new section of cyberspace to allow me to nurture the relationship of my heart and head. A new but dear friend commented on my mind, calling it complicated one day and beautiful the next. It moved me to be described in this way – but for anything it was because it reminded me that that is exactly what it is to be alive. It’s not unique to me, but it is a defining part of being human. We have infinite capacity for imagination and inspiration. It is not meant to be easy, but is it meant to be.

So here I present beautifullycomplicated.com. A place to share what inspired and moves me, and a place to explore what inspiration and imagination are all about.

If you stop by there, I hope you find something amongst the eclectic collection which gets you thinking and exploring.

But for now, here is to the day I stopped thinking just long enough to be true to my heart.